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My Mother
What a courageous woman she is.
Just a few weeks ago, I was joking around with her. Now she's no longer with us. I still have a lot of unanswered questions that I needed answers from her about. About how to live life, about how to be a better person, about how I could be as good as her. I wish she could be here with us the day Criselda and I have kids, when we grow older and need advice on how to raise them. I wish she was still right here with me bugging me to drive more carefully, about how not to be so messy, about sleeping more early, about being nice to others. I know I was not the most perfect son, but to me she was the most perfect mother. She was the most selfless person I know. She dedicated her life to everyone around her and loved every minuted of it. She was a good luck charm to Kung. She helped me with everything I needed. I want her to still be here. I don't know how to do everything I need to do.
So many what if's. What if there was a better treatment? What if she had another chance.
My only solace is that I know that she is no longer suffering. No longer having the pain of chemo therapy and radiation. No more IV's in her arm, no more machines breathing for her. No more sedation keeping her from comunicating to us.
I only wish that our time with her was less brief. I only got to know my mom for 25 years. I cherish every moment I had with her, good or bad.
Mom, thank you for always being there for me. Thank you for always standing up for me even when I was wrong. Thank you for always cleaning up my messes. Thank you for always understanding my mistakes. Thank you for never being too upset with me. Thank you for worrying about me. Thank you for fighting the long and hard battle that you did so you could be there for us just that much longer. Thank you for being the greatest mother in the world.
I miss you so much and love you even more. I know that you are up in heaven with Po, Uncle Jerry and everyone else who we love that has passed. God will take care of you now. Please never forget us because we will never forget you.
Just a few weeks ago, I was joking around with her. Now she's no longer with us. I still have a lot of unanswered questions that I needed answers from her about. About how to live life, about how to be a better person, about how I could be as good as her. I wish she could be here with us the day Criselda and I have kids, when we grow older and need advice on how to raise them. I wish she was still right here with me bugging me to drive more carefully, about how not to be so messy, about sleeping more early, about being nice to others. I know I was not the most perfect son, but to me she was the most perfect mother. She was the most selfless person I know. She dedicated her life to everyone around her and loved every minuted of it. She was a good luck charm to Kung. She helped me with everything I needed. I want her to still be here. I don't know how to do everything I need to do.
So many what if's. What if there was a better treatment? What if she had another chance.
My only solace is that I know that she is no longer suffering. No longer having the pain of chemo therapy and radiation. No more IV's in her arm, no more machines breathing for her. No more sedation keeping her from comunicating to us.
I only wish that our time with her was less brief. I only got to know my mom for 25 years. I cherish every moment I had with her, good or bad.
Mom, thank you for always being there for me. Thank you for always standing up for me even when I was wrong. Thank you for always cleaning up my messes. Thank you for always understanding my mistakes. Thank you for never being too upset with me. Thank you for worrying about me. Thank you for fighting the long and hard battle that you did so you could be there for us just that much longer. Thank you for being the greatest mother in the world.
I miss you so much and love you even more. I know that you are up in heaven with Po, Uncle Jerry and everyone else who we love that has passed. God will take care of you now. Please never forget us because we will never forget you.
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